I am screaming on the inside....I am smoldering...My emotions are cooking....not in a crazy way....I am just in that place....I am in that place where I have to get really brave to stay here on Earth. And I do not like it ....2 months shy of 16 years.....You might think I am used to medical stuff....real medical stuff and you would be wrong....I have to gear up as a wave is coming ...a medical wave. And all I want to do is enjoy life.....there is always a price these days...
And you can pass along some philosophical bullshit to me...but whatever you say, I have already been there...."I mean please after 16 years do not give me lines of bullshit"...I have heard all of them and then some....a small list of lines I get on a daily basis....:)...LOL
1. You are not dying God has a purpose for You.....OY...I say OY
2. You should feel grateful that it has not gone to your brain.....and how do we know this for sure???? LOL....I have not checked lately :) That is not how grateful really works....seriously..
3. Have you tried Snake Green with Polka Dot Grape Juice from the Mountains of Afganistan...it will cure You 3 weeks after drinking at a cost of $500 a teaspoon!
4. You have Cancer because of a crime that you committed in a past life and for $2000 I can cure You! (yes....someone said this to me) Ugh
The list is endless...this is a small list.....
So I will keep screaming on the inside and do my best to stay here.......that is all I can do everyday....and I will keep typing until I can not anymore!!!!!
Guess I will go drink some Afganistanian Snake Juice right now....:))))))
Tomorrow back to business.....