Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Dead Woman Living...Tips on Life After Being Dead for 35/40 Minutes

Hi All,

I have not written in a long time.   As many of you know I died on April 24th for about 35/40 minutes...My kids were told by doctors to say good bye to me...that even if I woke up...that my brain would be limited at best.  This is all in the middle of surviving stage 12 cancer...:).....if you have not read the other 500 posts ..you should.  Everyone was in tears as that surgery was by choice to remove one tumor and not life threatening.

Well I woke up....I had a long recovery for me in my body...my brain is fine ( although some might say different :)))....I have no memory of the entire event until I woke up in the ICU after a few days in a coma...I have no memory even checking into the hospital on that surgery day.

I am called a true miracle by all the doctors and nurses involved.  I was in the hospital for a week or so and everywhere I went people said, OMG...you are that lady that everyone is talking about" .  Very strange indeed.

So now it is October......After a long recovery for me ....(about 2 and a half months)...I flew to New York to my 50th High School Reunion and saw many old friends.  It was a gift for sure...

I came home and started to digest the whole events of the last months.    In between a few best friends in the fight of Leiomyosarcoma passed away..people I had known for many years...

I had my own scans and they were fine....still tumors not growing...another miracle...scans again end of November ...beginning December......

So now I find myself completely amazed after over 14 years.....  of really what should I do with my time that will make me happy?    Whether months or years?

There is definitely a bit of PTSD in my head...people are waiting for my book that I am never sure if I want to finish....

And the feeling that I am never doing enough for my fellow cancer folks...when all I want to do is lay on beach somewhere for the rest of my life and do nothing ...I can not do that either.

I will post here a few times a week...come back....Tips coming.....biggest one being life will never be as you plan...nope...not at all.